My fiancé had a wedding shower this weekend. We had registered at a few places before, and I was involved in the selection of all of the stuff (of course there is no DeLorean dealer to register at and electronics stores don't have wedding registries), but I must say, seeing some of it start to come in is a little weird. It's supposedly "our" stuff, but none of it looks like me. Weird huh? I was the one that helped to pick this stuff out. It's legitimately nice stuff, which is great, it just isn't me. If you've ever been over to my place, you would know what I mean. I currently have 25 year old furniture, 30+ year old dishes, nothing hanging on the walls, and only a few possessions (mainly technology related) that are of any value. That is all I've known and now it is all changing. I suppose most people would consider that an upgrade and I guess it is. It is just strange because I've never really put much value on that stuff and now here I am, becoming the typical "normal" middle class American, and I don't feel like that is me. At least, it has never been me.
Change is inevitable, I know that. I can't continue living as I do forever. No one with the exception of me likes living like this and I've known that if I got married this way of life would all change. Still, I like the way I live a lot and I can tell that I'm going to have a hard time letting it go. I've been trying to figure out what is going to be the biggest adjustment for me as a married man, and while I still can't give a definitive answer, I know that the dramatic change in the way I live is something I'm scared of and is going to be a huge adjustment for me.